Confused and Just Ready for Change

So I choose to do dumb things way to often. Last night was one of those times, and even though I dont really want to go into what happened, it made me realize alot about myslef. I am a person that knows where I stand but can fall little by little very easily. I know what I want but sometimes just want it now and am not willing to wait for it to come on its own. I realized last night that I miss Brian more then I thought I did and wish that wasnt the case. He is nothing that I need in my life right now and I know that but yet cant seem to get my heart to agree with my head. Thats ok because I know that Brian taught me alot about myself and my testimony and just my life in general. Even though we didnt date very long and I know it wasnt the best situation I have ever gotten myself into it was still something that changed my life for the better. I love life and am so happy that I am where I am today. Provo is a good place for me. I finished my semester last week and am so happy that is over. This week im moving in with Jessica. I hope that everything works out ok with this. Im helping her with her kids this semester and I just really hope that I am more a help than a pain to her. The kids seem excited so that is a good thing! I just am really excited for the change. Change wards, change roommates, change semesters, and just a fresh start to continue the road im traveling. I love my life and hope that whatever comes next I can face with my head high and a smile on my face!

Boring Life of Jenny's

K its kinda sad that all I ever have to talk about is school. But oh my goodness.... finals are next week and i swear this week has been more stressful than any finals week I have ever had..... and its not even finals yet!! Today was supposed to be my fun day! All semester Wednesdays have been the days I have looked forward to but today was kinda crazy. First there was a lot at work to deal with and then my teachers were all in a mood I did not want to deal with today! Its all going to be OK but if I don't pass all my classes I don't know what I'm going to do! Really I think I will be OK with most of them. This semester has been so stressful but also so rewarding! I keep saying that if I fail I'm changing my major... I don't think that will really happen though. I really do want my Early childhood degree but I want it in addition to my elementary. I want all the education I can get so why do I always let my grades control my feelings? I love my schooling and hope that I don't really fail any classes this semester, but I guess anything is possible. But its OK! It will all work out to what I need. I know that I have done the best I can so that is all I can do.

3 Semesters to go!

This semester has been the hardest semester of my life. School has always been something that somewhat comes easy for me. This semester has been very rewarding and full of experiences that I wouldn't have asked for but am grateful that I have had them. Lets start with kindergarten....
This has been one of the most challenging and rewarding jobs I have had. The kids are amazingly smart and they are so fun to work with. But trying to get all of their needs met and teaching them to the best of my ability has been quite the challenge when so many other things have been pulling at my life. This semester has been so demanding and as much as I have loved learning the information, I feel that I have not been able to put the time and attention into learning it because of my job. So even though both have been such great opportunities and experiences, it has been hard to give them both the attention they have needed. Therefor both my students and my education have been suffering. Im hoping and praying that next semester I will stay on top of things better and beable to be the best teacher and student I can be!

I am so excited for next semester because we are focusing on the younger grades! This semester was working with 4th, 5th, and 6th which has been fun, but my real love is with the little kids. That is where I feel I belong. So for now one semester almost out of the way and 3 left. The light is seeming a little brighter everyday.