Confused and Just Ready for Change

So I choose to do dumb things way to often. Last night was one of those times, and even though I dont really want to go into what happened, it made me realize alot about myslef. I am a person that knows where I stand but can fall little by little very easily. I know what I want but sometimes just want it now and am not willing to wait for it to come on its own. I realized last night that I miss Brian more then I thought I did and wish that wasnt the case. He is nothing that I need in my life right now and I know that but yet cant seem to get my heart to agree with my head. Thats ok because I know that Brian taught me alot about myself and my testimony and just my life in general. Even though we didnt date very long and I know it wasnt the best situation I have ever gotten myself into it was still something that changed my life for the better. I love life and am so happy that I am where I am today. Provo is a good place for me. I finished my semester last week and am so happy that is over. This week im moving in with Jessica. I hope that everything works out ok with this. Im helping her with her kids this semester and I just really hope that I am more a help than a pain to her. The kids seem excited so that is a good thing! I just am really excited for the change. Change wards, change roommates, change semesters, and just a fresh start to continue the road im traveling. I love my life and hope that whatever comes next I can face with my head high and a smile on my face!

Boring Life of Jenny's

K its kinda sad that all I ever have to talk about is school. But oh my goodness.... finals are next week and i swear this week has been more stressful than any finals week I have ever had..... and its not even finals yet!! Today was supposed to be my fun day! All semester Wednesdays have been the days I have looked forward to but today was kinda crazy. First there was a lot at work to deal with and then my teachers were all in a mood I did not want to deal with today! Its all going to be OK but if I don't pass all my classes I don't know what I'm going to do! Really I think I will be OK with most of them. This semester has been so stressful but also so rewarding! I keep saying that if I fail I'm changing my major... I don't think that will really happen though. I really do want my Early childhood degree but I want it in addition to my elementary. I want all the education I can get so why do I always let my grades control my feelings? I love my schooling and hope that I don't really fail any classes this semester, but I guess anything is possible. But its OK! It will all work out to what I need. I know that I have done the best I can so that is all I can do.

3 Semesters to go!

This semester has been the hardest semester of my life. School has always been something that somewhat comes easy for me. This semester has been very rewarding and full of experiences that I wouldn't have asked for but am grateful that I have had them. Lets start with kindergarten....
This has been one of the most challenging and rewarding jobs I have had. The kids are amazingly smart and they are so fun to work with. But trying to get all of their needs met and teaching them to the best of my ability has been quite the challenge when so many other things have been pulling at my life. This semester has been so demanding and as much as I have loved learning the information, I feel that I have not been able to put the time and attention into learning it because of my job. So even though both have been such great opportunities and experiences, it has been hard to give them both the attention they have needed. Therefor both my students and my education have been suffering. Im hoping and praying that next semester I will stay on top of things better and beable to be the best teacher and student I can be!

I am so excited for next semester because we are focusing on the younger grades! This semester was working with 4th, 5th, and 6th which has been fun, but my real love is with the little kids. That is where I feel I belong. So for now one semester almost out of the way and 3 left. The light is seeming a little brighter everyday.

Crazy Madness

So I have decided that dating is such a wonderful thing that I'm going to stop doing it! That makes sense right? I really actually hate the awkwardness involved with dating. It is such a pain to try and get two brains on the same wavelength to even make anything work to any ones advantage! As soon as I get attached to someone they have moved on or vise versa. I know I don't always make it easy on the guy but why cant we ever just both be on the same page at the same time? This I'm sure isn't making any sense but it made me feel better!

Now for the fun weekend I just had! Lisa Charley Mom and me went down to see Les Mis in St George this weekend. It was absolutely amazing and I loved it! We also got to stop by Porter's new home! It was gorgeous. I hope I have another opportunity to go visit them soon because I miss that family so much. Jayden is getting so big and makes me sad that I haven't been there to watch her learn and grow. Kirsten is so busy I'm sure that they are having fun with her! Its crazy I'm sure but They seem to really love having her in the family.

Life in General

By the time I get through a week of school and work I am so ready for the weekend! It gets kinda frustrating sometimes because either there isnt enough time in the weekend or I dont have anything to do. If Im not going to do anything fun, what is the point of having two days off! I love my weekends whether I do anything or not but I just get so bored sometimes and wish that I werent so scared to call someone and say hey lets go do something.
Life is good though! I have had a lot of stuff going on which has been keeping it interesting. It has been fun because I have recently got in contact again with some of the people I knew when I lived down here in Provo before. I was way excited to get together with Dan! He is the same old Dan and just crazy and I love him. He is great!

School

Oh my gosh this last month has been crazy! I left for Europe the end of July and when I got back in August I got a phone call from my boss. She said that her kindergarten teacher fell through and asked me to take on the responsibility. (This was an exciting opportunity for me because it gives me a lot of experience that will help me in every goal I have set for myself!) By the time I got this phone call I only had one week to prepare for the year before I had to begin assessing the children. I still am behind in my lesson planning (to say the least) but really this has been one of the best experiences I have ever had. I started into the program at UVU this semester as well. WOW! it has been very intense. Its nice to be able to apply some of what I'm learning in my classes into my teaching though. Between the two (school and work) its hard to get home and find time to accomplish all the other requirements in my life though. Its fun to be busy because when I do have those times of just being able to play and relax, I seem to appreciate them that much more.